I shall be keeping a list of my reading for 2010 on this journal, as I have done in recent years, but I have decided not to participate formally in the LJ 50 Book Challenge any more. I still like the basic premise (and indeed will be setting myself the goal of getting through at least 50 books during the year, because it is always helpful to have something to aim for), but last year I began to wonder why I was listing and commenting on my year's reading for a large group of strangers, most of whom seemed to have as little interest in my reading habits as, frankly, I did in theirs. Having failed to come up with a useful answer, I decided that while 50 Book Challenge had served its purpose in helping me to develop the habit of regularly logging my reading, it was probably time I moved on.
Over the last eight years or so, most of my reading (putting aside the reading I do for work, and the less said about most of that in public the better, for all concerned) has been primarily directed by two things: my class reading lists (and I have at least been fortunate in having been contractually obliged to read all sorts of really interesting material), and the books I review. I don't review anywhere near as much as
peake does, and have indeed, in the last few years frequently distinguished myself by nothing so much as my failure to actually write a number of the reviews I was supposed to have produced (I'm not remotely proud of this and am still wondering how to expiate my quite considerable sins in that direction and do better in future, because I would like to continue reviewing). The rest of my reading has been rather arbitrary, mostly shaped by the books that PK gives me at various times during the year, which are things he's seen reviewed that he thinks I'll be interested in (he has a very good eye for the kind of non-fiction I like). There is rarely much time to simply follow my reading bliss.
I noticed something almost for the first time last year, perhaps because I had started reading more book blogs (hmm, reading about reading in lieu of actually reading), and paying more attention to other people as readers, and that was people actively planning their year's reading, creating reading lists, devising community reading projects. (I suppose 50 Book Challenge was a kind of community reading project but somehow it always felt different.) Honestly, it had never occurred to me to actively plan my reading like that, at least not since childhood, when I was a great reader of series, and compiler of lists of books read and to be read. I'm not sure why it hadn't occurred to me to organise my own reading, unless it is that I've been a slave to academic reading lists for so long. And in fact I did make some tentative reading plans last year, which I never followed through with, though I did get so far as to write them down in my desk diary.
Which brings me to back to 2010, and thinking again about reading resolutions. 2010 is going to be an interesting year reading-wise: I am about to to embark on my final MA module, which means after March I will no longer be following prescribed reading lists (although depending on what plans come to fruition later in the year, this may not be strictly true), but will then have to working on structuring my study reading for maximum effectiveness. But what happens after that? It was looking at Andrew Seal's '
Reading Resolutions for 2010' that really set me thinking. Oh how I want to join in with that grand project, and oh how unlikely it seems that I'll get anywhere near achieving it. I was similarly excited and depressed by
coalescent's
'Some Books I Want to Read in 2010'.
So what to do? To be honest, I'm not sure. I love reading as much as I ever did, and books excite me as much as they ever did, and yet, at times, like Marley with his chain forged from cash boxes, I feel I'm weighed down by the thought of everything I want to read. I did a calculation the other day, on the basis of my living another 30 years and reading 50 books a year, and realised I might have only another 1500 books to read (actually, I think I'm probably good for several thousand, but even so ...). So, reading projects seem to be the way forward.
Except I have discovered, belatedly, that I'm rather better at sticking to resolutions and intentions if I don't tell people about them and just do them (last year's reading plan failure notwithstanding). This seems utterly counter-intuitive and counter-productive, I know, but it seems to work, so I'd rather not break the charm.
Which I suppose means that this isn't a post about what I'm planning to read in 2010. At least, not yet. Or, perhaps, it's a post to invite people to play along and guess what my plans are as the reading unfolds.